I'm really really irritated.
How can someone keep scolding you?
Really .
"IM SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE, JOLIES."
So? I didn't do it? There are other REASONS AND YOU FREAKING DON'T KNOW SO JUST FREAKING SHUT UP.
I've been wanting to vent my angers I went to read DGM. Vented half.

I did whatever you want me to do. I'll bet you think it's not good. Then , so? What you wanna me do. IM A FREAKING SEC THREE. MAYBE IM INCOMPETENT. THEN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT LAA . KICK ME OUT LAA.

You'd think I'd care? At most i don't attend anything. I'll just finish whatever I have now, and leave .

I'm doing as much as I could . I am already stressed out. Like totally. LIKE REALY VERY STRESSED OUT. I HAVE MY STUDIES, THEN COMPETITION, THEN MY CADETS , THEN ALL THESE CRAP. NOT TO MENTION FAMILY.

IF YOU FREAKING THINK IM A UNBREAKABLE MACHINE IM NOT. SO MY PARENTS COMPLAIN SO IM A FREAKING PERSON WHO DON'T KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE WITH THEM?! JUST FREAKING THINK . IF MY PARENTS THINK IM GOING HOME AND DOESN'T LIKE IT, CAN I HELP ? YES I CAN . BY GOING HOME EARLIER BUT THERE ARE UNCOOPERATIVE PEOPLE. SO WHAT . IF YOU THINK YOU ARE THE BEST, IM OUTTA THIS . I DON'T THINK THIS SUITS ME AT ALL. I'VE BEEN CARING FOR THEM , CARING AND THINKING WHAT'S BEST. IM THINKING AND TRIES TO IMPLEMENT. YES I FREAKING KNOW THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I DIDN'T DO. I KNOW IM SORRY AND TRY TO CHANGE. TRY TO REMEMBER TO DO IT. I ALWAYS FORGETS STUFF, EVER FREAKING EFFING WONDERED WHY? EVER? Guess not. You're the person who is at the top. Always think think and think you are the best. ALL OF YOU ARE THE SAME. ALWAYS SAY YOU THINK FOR YOUR JUNIORS, I AGREE YOU DO CARE FORTHEM . BUT YOU DON'T FREAKING CARE ABOUT YOUR NCOs. SO WHAT IF YOU ATTEND OTC FOR US. SO WHAT. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS THINKING WE ARE UNBREAKABLE .
Really .. JUST FUCKING SHUT UP AND LOOK BEHIND THE SCENES.

Nothing NOTHING is NEVER what they are on the surface .

FUCKING THINK.