Jolies Tan

Serious Trust Issues Tuesday 12 March 2013

I was attempting the art of writing a fan fiction when suddenly I was hit by a pang of darkness. Guess what, I blacked out =,=
Whatever, not the point.

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Press at Own Risk

You know sometimes, you feel as if people are not caring about you enough? It feels as if people are really just not caring, even if you were to tell them things. Have you ever really wanted a really caring response from someone but they just give you a super cold shoulder? Have you ever wanted the truth from someone really dear of you, and yet, they don't tell you anything? Don't you ever wanted a "good morning" and "good night" from someone that was texting you? Have you ever felt all lonely and alone inside of you? Just cold, dark and eerie, as if the world is falling apart? Yes, I have. I don't get it how a person really dear to you do not tell you things. I don't get it how a person that is really dear to you that can just forget about you momentarily (given the fact that you do not do so at all). I don't get how insensitive a person can be. I can't get it how someone can break the same promise every time (Found Guilty on Me- tried not to anymore). I don't get how someone can ignore messages from your dearest and reply someone else first. I don't get it how you could just totally treat someone like that. I have to say, I have the same experiences, oh and hey, if you find yourself guilty of any of the above, please just stop it. It hurts people. I can't say that I am emotional (emo) or whatsoever bullshit, I am not, actually. (Please do not judge me by how my thoughts actually run) I have friends that are attached and yeah, they feel as if their boys are treating them as for granted. Like for example, being insensitive. How could a guy be insensitive to the girl when the girl is sensitive to the guy? I don't get this point: The guy thinks the girl was being insensitive when the girl was just voicing her own thoughts and being sensitive enough to say at such a later time. And of course, let's count the fact in of not trusting enough. Being not trusting enough to someone that completely trusts you sucks big time. I mean, take a look! I trust you to the maximum and tells you everything, and YET, you just don't tell me most things. Okay, fine, this is still acceptable if it is just between normal friend to a person that has the you-have-to-tell-me-all-things-that-are-troubling-you-i-am-an-awesome-listener face. But if you are really dear to someone and you do that, -sighs- big red alert lights flashing!! Go ahead and tell him/her everything about what you're thinking! About how you feel about things, a complaint, a compliment, a wishful thinking, a something, I think if you're dear to that person, he/she will listen to you. I mean, don't you absolutely hate it when someone close to you does not tell you something you would tell them about? That is absolutely hated by me. This totally goes back to the trusting issue, okay fineeeee, I am just a person with serious trust issues, ain't that right? There are just so many factors leading to a better relationship, be it girl/boy or with friends. Something that really troubled me a lot of the whole day today. I really don't know what will happen now.

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Song appreciation

Fire- SHINee

Romaji Lyrics

hajimete kimi ni deatta hi ga atarashii "Birthday"

umare kawaru kimi no tame ni niau you ni "Lady"

daremoga umareta toki-niwa fukanzen

kaketa kokoro no ka-do o kakuse nakute

dakishimetai no-ni kizutsuke attari yorisoi-nagara

yorikakatte bakari

so-no ai de kanzen ni naru tame ni umarete kitanda

mirai o terashi-dashite

ima made no oroka na boku o yakitsukushite yo

ai no "Fire, Fire" tokashite ko-no kokoro o

mou "Don't look back"

juu-nin-toiro no kosei no umi jibun de shizunde

koko ni ite mo i-na-i mitai mogaita "Everyday"

daremoga umareru mae ni machiawase shite

umarete kita no-ni kizuke-nakute

itsuka unmei no ito ni kodoku ni sugiru "Story" (kodoku-na "Story")

soba ni itai no-ni surechigatte bakari

so-no ai de kanzen ni naru tame ni umarete kitanda

"Fire" terashite ite

mou na-ni mo mayowa-nu you ni michibiite zutto

ai no "Fire, Fire" mitashite ko-no kokoro o

mou "Don't look back"

kagami no naka ni utsuru otoko wa "Different man" (zutto matte)

mitsume au dake de subete ga wakaru "Take my hand" (soba ni isasete)

tsubasa o koe kimi no kotoba

so-no egao sarani habataite

"We make it, make it" hikari no nakae

so-no ai de kanzen ni naru tame ni umarete kitanda

mirai o terashi dashite

ima made no oroka-na boku o yaki tsukushite yo

ai no "Fire, fire"

so-no ai de kanzen ni naru tame ni umarete kitanda

"Fire" terashite ite

mou na-ni mo mayowa-nu yoh ni michibiitezutto

ai no "Fire, Fire" mitashite ko-no kokoro o

mou "Don't look back"

English Translation Lyrics

The day I first met you was my new "Birthday"

I was born again for you, to suit you, my "Lady"

Whenever someone is born, they're not whole

Not being able to hide the cards of their hearts they put up

Wanting to embrace themselves, but instead, hurting each other as they get more intimate,

They do nothing but lean against each other

I've been brought to life to be made whole, by that love

I'm gonna shine upon the future

And burn down the me who was nothing but a fool up until now

Fire, fire of love, melt away this heart of mine

And "Don't look back" anymore

---In a sea of individuals where everyone is different, I drown

Even if I am, I struggle as if I wasn't here, "Everyday"

I made an appointment before anyone comes to life

And came to life without even noticing

It's a "Story" that will go through the threads of loneliness one (A story of loneliness)

I want ot be by your side and yet, I do nothing pass you by

I've been brought to life to be made whole, by that love

"Fire", keep on burning

Keep on guiding me do that I no longer go astray

Fire, fire of love, fill up this heart of mine

And "Don't look back" anymore

--The person that is reflected in that mirror is a "Different Man" (I've been waiting all along)

Just by your eyes having caught mine, everything changes "Take my hand" (Let me by by your side)

Your words overcome those wings

And your smile fly on further more

"We make it, make it"　to the center of the lighter

I've been brought to life to be made whole, by that love

I'm gonna shine upon the future

And burn down the me who was nothign but a fool up until now

Fire, fire of love,

I've been brought to life to be made whole, by that love

"Fire", keep on burning

Keep on guiding me do that I no longer go astray

Fire, fire of love, fill up this heart of mine

And "Don't look back" anymore

Translated : languagebymusic.com

Credit : beautifulsonglyrics

Let's all take one listening ear and appreciate this song,
Sorry to all anti-kpop, the MV was suddenly out today, even I was pretty shocked.
I was happily surfing the internet and I saw the MV was out. AMAZING.

In this MV, it was about helping each other, bring each other across the dark and help them light their way through. The candle was used as a medium, serving the tool that passes on the "fire", having the first started by Taemin. This "fire" was sung as the "Fire of Love" which I suspect that this song is actually an inspirational one which is one of the first of the SHINee album.

Even if you are an anti, take the time to read through the English lyrics and admire the beauty of it. And of course, the beauty of the song, vocals and those pretty faces.
(*WARNING: TAEMINNIE IS MINE!)

To my Darling: <3 you